This past year I have struggled to get by and I’ve been missing the motivation to keep going. For my new year I need the reminder to keep pressing forward and keep doing the things that I’m called to do at this time in my life. I don’t want to give up or fall short, I want to press on.
I need some endurance in a few areas:
This is the first year that I have felt unbelievably burnt out with homeschooling. I have not felt motivated to continue and I’ve wanted to give up on many occasions. However, I want to endure and educate my children well. I want them to catch the excitement of learning and to feel emboldened to question and to learn.
This house won’t clean itself and since I don’t want to clean it, I’m not sure what we’ll do. I have felt overwhelmed with trying to keep the house clean while making sure dishes and laundry are done and food is on the table. My husband is wonderfully helpful but I still seem to fall very behind. I will endure in the daily tasks of cleaning and I will dig myself out of every pile of laundry or every mound of dirty dishes.
We have a great marriage but marriage takes a lot of work and it requires a good bit of endurance. I don’t want to get complacent and sabotage the closeness that we share. I am choosing to endure in communication, in seeking forgiveness, and in serving.
One of my primary responsibilities is to disciple my kids. I don’t think of my job as parenting but more of discipling. It takes so much effort to provide a good example by pointing them to Christ. I have found myself giving in to their whining or becoming frustrated with their complaining and fighting. Rather than address the issue at their hearts, I sometimes let the behaviors pass.
I have lots of unfinished Bible studies that grace my shelves. This past year I did finish all of the new studies that I started. But I felt like I was doing them halfheartedly. I want to endure in my Bible studies, learning while passionately pursuing Christ.
So, what do I need to do? I need to endure. I know exactly what I’m supposed to be doing it and even though I lack the motivation to continue I must press on.
My verse for the school year is in 1st Thessalonians and it provides an excellent reminder. I’m also claiming Colossians 1:11-12 for the new year.
I want to endure with the help that only Christ can give so that I can joyfully thank Him for His provision and then share in His inheritance. I can endure because my hope is in Christ who gives me endurance and patience.